I don't know....

For some reason I just want everything to be perfect and ok in my life. It would just make me so happy if it were though. However I sit here and I often feel like everything isn't they way I think it is or I feel like I am being lied to. I don't know which it is and I wish that I knew. Like that there are too many tell tale signs in my face but I just can't take them heart because I have made mistakes like that before and made a huge mess of stuff. I just can't do that now I just can't afford to do that to my heart or put myself through something like that again. So I am just going to roll with and be cautious and not try to make a mess out of anything and just wait and see.

~sharon